Today... was.. awesome!
I decided to switch gyms. The old one down the street didn't have a few of the machines I needed and let's be honest, it was stuck in the 80's.
I feared I might break the stepper.
Which in my case, would have been completely fine because I hate that thing! :)
I had this stereotype with working out at a big boxed gym.
I guess I expected to see big, buff guys grunting and dropping weights, staring at me, and making me feel incredible uncomfortable..
But that wasn't the case at all.
It was actually a mix of people just doing their own thing.
Perhaps that's why I love teaching group fitness so much. It attracts all levels of people and we get to connect.
But I plugged in my headphones and off I went.
30 minutes on the stepper and 30 minutes of back training.
As I was on the stepper, my thoughts kept going back to why I wanted this in the first place.
I think I always WANTED IT, but I had an intense fear of FAILURE.
Growing up, hugely criticized, it made me feel like I couldn't do anything right.
So if something was scary or new, I didn't even want to go there.
I had this vision that being a bikini competitor was completely unattainable.
Well.. I'm going there.
And I have no plans of turning back.
This is the most focused, dedicated, and driven I've been about ANYTHING in my life.
And ironically, it's completely for ME!
I'm driven to be an incredible mom and wife. I'm driven to be an incredible trainer, nurse, and bad-ass business owner.
But this goal has lit a fire in my gut, just to see what I'm capable of.
Now that fear of never being able to do it, is a distant memory.
I'm doing it!
See that's the thing-- You have to put yourself out there and try.
How else will we ever know what we are truly capable of!
F- the fear of failure.
Day 5 of 138... DONE! #BetterBodyAfterBaby