So I hopped on that thing called the digital bathroom scale this morning.
Most days I call it the "Liar, Liar Pants on Fire" Machine, but I guess there's no need for name-calling.
And I got pretty discouraged when I saw the numbers going UP not down.
But I wasn't surprised.
No, I didn't eat a pound of poutine, chug a gallon of wine, or sit on the couch (even though some nights I wanted to), and I stayed on my health and fitness plan.
What did happen was that I had an incredibly emotional week.
I'm in the process of letting go of a bad relationship that's taking a toll on my health (No.. It's not my marriage. <3)
My toddler is having night terrors and jumping into our bed frequently at night (and anyone who has ever co-slept with a toddler knows that comes with numerous kicks and slaps to the head throughout the night, even when they don't mean it).
Lastly, I've fallen behind on a huge course I'm taking to build my new brand, because my full time job has been exceptionally busy, and I've been blessed to coach a few new clients with Quick Fitness.
Disappointment, Heartache, Lack of Sleep, Crazy Long Work Hours.. I knew I was headed towards burnout and needed to fit something in for me.
I was headed home from work on Friday and I had one hour until I had to pick up Oliver from daycare.
I decided to go shopping.
I don't recommend retail therapy, but it sure did temporarily feel good!
For the first time in I don't know HOW LONG, I fit into a size 6 DRESS. Just a few months ago I was a size 12.
I've pretty much cut myself in half. OR that's the way I like to think of it.
So although the scale went up, and I'm holding onto worry, stress, and emotions right now, I chose to celebrate that HUGE WIN!
I put on that dress and I felt pretty darn sexy! And it's actually a modest dress for work, not your typical little black dress.
I chose to see myself for the way I've been showing up each day to my nutrition and my workouts, and to be proud of that.
Success isn't always determined by numbers and spreadsheets.
And I always remember that when I coach.
I think that's the best part of coaching. You meet people where they are at. You celebrate the small wins.
You look at the big picture and you go back to what THEY define as success.
I think too many health and fitness coaches treat people like science experiments.
Lose X amount of weight by eating Y and burn these calories to equal Z.
It's so much more than that.
Motivation, drive, and commitment comes from connection.
Connection with yourself, connection with the people who want to see you succeed, and meeting yourself with kindness and compassion.
That stupid scale can never measure the confidence I feel right at this very moment.
And that's what I choose to celebrate!
Day 61 of my bikini comp plan...Done.
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